What's Lacking

This lack of definition
Breeds only confusion
As I sit here and worry
About my illusion.

About my relationship
That isn't quite real.
I struggle with feelings
That I shouldn't quite feel.

This lack of clarity
Has clouded my mind.
I search for that truth,
That I never can find.

Who are you to me?
Who am I to you?
As the weather does change,
So does this fact too.

You say that you love me.
But how could you know?
Love needs so much time,
In order to grow.

Something is lacking.
Something's not right.
As I sort through this mess
I shall not rest tonight.