What's in a Name?

A name from my past,
That I long since forgot
Has found me again,
And has made me distraught.

It has stealthily worked
Its way into my thoughts,
And now I am left
In a very tight spot.

Beauty and Freedom
Are the things that it brought.
With spirit and vigor
It seems to have fought.

Until finally
It would seem that I'm caught
As I willfully enter
Into its plot.

Both Havoc and Excitement
Are what it has wrought.
For it seems that my heart
Has already been bought.

I'm left with a choice,
And thus left distraught.
I ought to decide,
But it seems I cannot.